having to sort out an administrative clusterfuck this week, thank you government

  • LallyLuckFarm@beehaw.org
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    4 months ago

    I’m so sorry for your loss and what you’re going through 🫂

    It might not be possible right now but please give yourself some grace. You were attentive to his condition and when it worsened you acted immediately. I can’t imagine a better kind of human to place trust in, and I can’t imagine him not knowing how hard you tried, how much you cared, or that he would ever blame you.

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      4 months ago

      Hey thanks, I appreciate you. What you’re saying is all probably true, but I can’t shake this horrible feeling that I failed him. I like my dog more than I like most people I meet, and he was with me all day every day. I hope this feeling lessens with time.

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        4 months ago

        I’ll tell you that it does - or at least, the remembering becomes slightly less painful as time goes on. The lessons really stick, but it becomes easier to remember all the good stuff, and those are the things you should hold on to the hardest during those difficult times.

        And I’m glad you shared with us, if for no other reason than helping you process your grief. I’m sure we’re all sending our love, hoping to lighten the load in some small way.

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        4 months ago

        Hey just came across this and I hope you’re doing alright today. Losing a pet is never easy. It’s easy to second-guess yourself after the fact but there’s no way you could’ve known what was happening. What you saw was pretty standard “my dog got into something they probably shouldn’t have“ territory and any vet worth their salt would’ve probably told you “just wait to bring them in tomorrow unless you see lots of blood.”

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          4 months ago

          I did talk to my dog’s usual vet and he basically said the same thing - there probably wasn’t anything I could have done. There wasn’t any blood and he wasn’t crying at all, he just laid there. I’m doing better than I was when I posted, but its still painful. He was only 6 and acted like a big puppy up til the last 12 hours he was with us.

          Thanks for the reply. I truly appreciate it.