I can only imagine the spot your in. i can emphathise with that, since my anxiety was so bad for nearly a decate with daily panic attacks at my worst. and i can assure you i lost all hope in it ever getting better. but i was shown otherwise. i mean my anxiety is still there. but i learned to handle it better and have a mich healthier and more supportive enviourment. i think our surroundings can help a lot, and i know its so impossibly hard to change these on your own. and ofc noone can promise it gets better. but from my own experience, going from 24/7 laying bed to actually shop on my own, i can say there is the possibility. I wish you all the best :) you are a nice person who deserves good things