This morning I’m mostly grumpy about my ADHD.

Firstly, I didn’t get around to taking my pill until an hour after I got up, because I straight up forgot, despite remembering as I was pouring my coffee.

Then I just realised that I missed a Dr appointment yesterday, because it was made two fucking weeks ago, and despite being in the fucking calendar I can’t be trusted to fucking remember anything.

I’m particularly angry about that, because it was to review (and hopefully increase) my meds…

I’m angry about that because it could have been a sodding phone appointment, but every drs surgery is run by old guys who are massively averse to anything beyond sitting in front of their patients so they can chastise them for being fat.

And I really want to practice the mindfulness I’ve been taught, to consider that this is a spiral, and that ultimately no harm has been done, I’ll just be increasing (hopefully) my dosage a couple of weeks later.

But I’m frustrated that there’s so much stuff I have to remember that I just can’t. Other people manage to juggle all the needs on them, but I feel like I always fail, or at the very least that I can’t be trusted to be consistent.

  • Zoop@beehaw.orgEnglish
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    1 year ago

    So, the second brain thing just sounds like a journal or diary but with good indexing and searchability. Is that correct? I guess I’m not understanding why it’s unique or how it’d be useful…but I suck ass at knowing what to write in journals or diaries, so this is likely at least partially just a ‘me’ thing.

    I’m just not sure what I’d write into one of these things. Do you mind if I ask what types of things you out in yours?

    I signed up for their emails, so maybe that’ll help me. I wish I could just snap my fingers and already have it all done, lol! It sounds so daunting and I don’t know where I’d start or what I’d put in it.