I don’t know that I’ve ever been truly torn over a fantasy. Anything I felt would be fun, I did.
It didn’t all work out, of course. Most of it did, but not at every occurrence.
Take a gang bang for example. I thought it might be fun, and when a lady in one of the groups I was in wanted to have one, I signed up.
It turns out that a lot of what happens at a gang bang is waiting around watching other men masturbate. Once you have more than four or five people, you can’t all have a good view of the action without extra effort and planning. It was still fun, but not as exciting as I had thought it would be. Still joined in a few later on, with varying degrees of enjoyment, but it all fell short of the fantasy.
However, performing in front of a crowd was better than the fantasy. It is unique, even if you’re used to orgies and group scenes. Being on a stage, even a small one in someone’s play room, being watched and applauded, it is a rush. If the crowd is bigger, there’s a tipping point where it feels more anonymous, even if you know everyone. You’re up there, they’re watching, and waves of arousal move through the audience. People start masturbating to what you’re doing, or having sex while watching you. Hard to not enjoy that feeling, and it surpassed how intense I thought it would be.
I don’t know that I’ve ever been truly torn over a fantasy. Anything I felt would be fun, I did.
It didn’t all work out, of course. Most of it did, but not at every occurrence.
Take a gang bang for example. I thought it might be fun, and when a lady in one of the groups I was in wanted to have one, I signed up.
It turns out that a lot of what happens at a gang bang is waiting around watching other men masturbate. Once you have more than four or five people, you can’t all have a good view of the action without extra effort and planning. It was still fun, but not as exciting as I had thought it would be. Still joined in a few later on, with varying degrees of enjoyment, but it all fell short of the fantasy.
However, performing in front of a crowd was better than the fantasy. It is unique, even if you’re used to orgies and group scenes. Being on a stage, even a small one in someone’s play room, being watched and applauded, it is a rush. If the crowd is bigger, there’s a tipping point where it feels more anonymous, even if you know everyone. You’re up there, they’re watching, and waves of arousal move through the audience. People start masturbating to what you’re doing, or having sex while watching you. Hard to not enjoy that feeling, and it surpassed how intense I thought it would be.