I always feel bad about smoking cause it feels like an attempt to “escape” the guilt and do even less, but honestly everytime I hit my vape (no joints, they make me go straight back to the couch) I suddenly get the urge to do anything productive, I might even consider doing something I enjoy, such as hobbies (that I just can’t make myself do when sober, god knows why)
I do! I won’t cough or vomit, but there will be days when I, completely out of the blue, feel miserable as hell, close to crying, capable of nothing more than lying down. The next day I’ll feel fairly fine again. It’s kinda hard to pinpoint where these feelings are coming from though for me it feels like it’s mostly work related, as in “I don’t want to live in this capitalist hellscape” or “Why would I waste 8 hours of precious lifetime each day when I can barely function for more than 2”