itsyourmom

You talking about your situation, and for me, I call that my “flash point” where I “breathe fire”. I get to a point, after being pushed too much or too far that I breathe fire. That’s what I call it.

I can take only so much… and usually, in my life, I can take it for a while… course this all depends on other issues around me… kids, bills, finances, car troubles, job, stress, sleep, exhaustion etc. I also encourage you to talk with someone, you are not alone, and hope you find a way to tame the flame.

Side note though… imo standing up to injustice and assholes who are out there purposely causing misery to others and yourself through their misdeeds isn’t always a bad thing.

I’m terrible at remembering names! I can 100% tell you what they look like, hell, I can even tell you what they bought at the store I work at…but as far as their names? Nope. It’s awkward when someone I went to high school with two decades ago comes up and says… “Heyyyyy! (My name, of course they remember MY NAME) How’s the kids”…. 👀 I’m like… “heyyyy …. you! How’s it going???” 😬meanwhile I’m mentality trying to figure out why they kinda look familiar and how the heck they know I have kids… plural… lol. 😳

I was in my mid 30’s when I was diagnosed with ADHD. Actually my twin daughter’s ADHD doctor asked me at one of their appointments if I had ever been tested/ seen about it. I was kinda confused since I didn’t think at the time I had it. Once I get tested and then started on ADHD meds… my whole life of struggles became clear. I had struggled with anxiety and depression from middle school on and was on two-three meds for that. Even then I still struggled with anxiety and panic.

Once started on ADHD meds, no longer needed my anxiety or depression meds. My doc said my ADHD presented with that. So that was a bonus!

I can’t stay focused, I “spin in circles” as I call it. Where my brain is like “boot looping” basically. I can’t start all the projects/ tasks I know I need/want to do… so I literally… SPIN. I get super frustrated with unfinished tasks and easily get distracted with something new.

Ie; folding laundry… start putting them away and see I need to empty the trash in the bathroom, then, see the dishes need doing so Ofc I start washing them…and then one of my daughters starts talking to me and I’m off doing something else for them. End result? Bullshit. Laundry not done, dishes half assed… kid’s task… well that’s completely done cause I have them there in front of me making sure it’s done… oh and trash IS emptied but I lost the trash can somewhere. Probably where the laundry is.

That is a typical day. I also am so “busy” all day I don’t eat till right when I’m sitting down for the first time all day and then I graze all evening long till bedtime…