Yep, I practically slept through math with straight A’s, so apparently that meant I couldn’t be struggling. Like yeah, math was easy, but I’d also spend 4 hours on a 30 minute history assignment and get a C. But my math grades were “proof” that if I “just put in a little effort” I could have straight A’s in every class. Which always hurt, like what do you mean “just put in a little effort”? I put in eight times the effort I was expected to and barely got a passing grade. Being good at one school subject doesn’t magically make you good at all of them. But if I got anything less than a 100% on everything I was in for a “lecture” aka 30 minutes of screaming about how they didn’t raise a failure (and 30 extra minutes of sleep I had to miss to work on homework). I would’ve seriously benefited from help, instead I got shame.
Yep, I practically slept through math with straight A’s, so apparently that meant I couldn’t be struggling. Like yeah, math was easy, but I’d also spend 4 hours on a 30 minute history assignment and get a C. But my math grades were “proof” that if I “just put in a little effort” I could have straight A’s in every class. Which always hurt, like what do you mean “just put in a little effort”? I put in eight times the effort I was expected to and barely got a passing grade. Being good at one school subject doesn’t magically make you good at all of them. But if I got anything less than a 100% on everything I was in for a “lecture” aka 30 minutes of screaming about how they didn’t raise a failure (and 30 extra minutes of sleep I had to miss to work on homework). I would’ve seriously benefited from help, instead I got shame.