• wavebeam@lemmy.worldEnglish
    3·
    5 hours ago

    I am so sorry for your loss.

    Last night I was dreaming about my dog, who really likes to dig, somehow digging a whole dang tunnel in our back yard. Like, mine shaft sized right in the side of the hill in our lawn. Then, I got a visit from my dog that passed away almost 2 years ago. He just came up to me, leaned on my leg, and I kneeled down and hugged him and told him how much I missed him. I was crying in the dream and in real life. I kinda knew I was sleeping and felt that he was visiting me from beyond.

    Life’s been tough lately, my 10yo adopted daughter is violent and irrational and I feel like a slave to the rigid ways we attempt to live life to minimize her outbursts. We had to have her taken to the emergency dept for a night this week because she refused to use any of the skills she worked on in treatment to regain a calm and safe body, but also couldn’t be left without literally tearing holes in her walls. So either we were trapped in the room with her abuse, or waited as she literally tore a hole in the wall to bring the abuse to us elsewhere.

    So in short, things have been stressful. It was a really nice feeling to have a visit from my old friend from beyond to tell me he loves and misses me, and is still here for me when things are hard.

    I’m not crazy, I know that it’s just a creation of my brain coping with and processing the information it takes in, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t comforting to see someone I miss so dearly. I hope you are blessed with a visit from your friend soon as well.

    • notsosure@sh.itjust.worksOPEnglish
      2·
      18 hours ago

      I want to think that too… but don’t read to much into his face, he was partially blind and had dementia on top!

  • profgrumpypants@midwest.socialEnglish
    10·
    1 day ago

    I wish I knew it ever stopped. You can put some space between you and your pain, but I think once in love always in love. Best I can say is that love isn’t finite, and you can always go and find some more to share.

    • CH3DD4R_G0B-L1N@sh.itjust.works
      English
      2·
      12 hours ago

      Wanted to say something similar. Like just know that it doesn’t get easier. I mean it does, but it doesn’t, ya know?

      I just think of “what is grief but love persisting?”

      • profgrumpypants@midwest.socialEnglish
        2·
        6 hours ago

        It’s so maddeningly awful. In talking with my partner about this, she ended up bursting out in tears over our latest lost boy. He’s been gone for years by this point, it’s just still so awful when you think about the circumstances. You do what you do for them, out of love.

  • Lifecoach5000@lemmy.worldEnglish
    3·
    1 day ago

    So sorry for your loss. I lost both of my elders last month and it’s been a rollercoaster for me. Good thoughts and vibes to you friend! Your dog looks like they were stellar and the bestest!