So a little background, I have dated a boy for a long time and then we took a break because of mistakes I made and I’m just going to be honest me not being a great boyfriend.
I have wanted to get back together with him so bad I have thought about it and what I want to say to hi and mapped out conversations in my head with him thought about how I will say sorry and make it right.
Everyone literally everyone says just move on just move on but no I want to make it right and make it work.
Could this be an Autistic fixation.
What do they want? If that isn’t your priority then you are still making the wrong decisions for the wrong reasons.
Sounds like you want to be happy by using them as the means. Work on that first.
What are the “mistakes you made”? Cheating?
I guess one part of it is how “big and important” it feels, so don’t let that accidentally dominate or overextend the venture.
For example, ask to have a chance to talk things out without anything more planned or expected. Making things right can be optional past that. Making things work optional past that again.
It could be an autistic fixation, it could not be. If you want to try then go for it. Worst that can happen is you get rejected or breakup again.