Yeah I know I know. I even can’t do it like medically I am not supposed to more than usual person.

I need some kind of substance that works like nicotine, is easy to obtain and has less or no health risks

Probably gotta go to psych at last but I procrastinate on that since years

I was thinking recently let’s go and enroll in a course to become air traffic controller but I need nicotine for that. To pass tests and to work

Thing is I can’t even take the nicotine pills technically because I am in thrombosis risk group.

If I was usual medically person I would just take nicotine pills and deem the eventual risks completely worth having actual ability to focus and work. Without nicotine my career life is depressing if it even exists

I underestimated how this vile habit helped me pass to the top university but to be honest when I was studying I smoked like a lot, more than I ate and started to feel so fucking terrible that I switched education to something easier that I already knew how to do