I need major help with this. I am stagnating in life, I don’t know where to go next due to this issue.

The things I like to do (in cycles bc, as title said i dont stick to hobbies) are always something super competitive or don’t make any money. I like to learn, so I dive into all sorts of hobbies like coding, 3D art, vfx, video game development, a whole bunch of random things (but are generally about creation).

I do not have the ambition, motivation, or lasting interest to pursue just one of these things, ESPECIALLY not as a career. If I pick a career path based on a passing interest, I will hate my career and become even more depressed, and honestly just quit no matter the consequences (ive done this with jobs). I literally will pour hours of dedication into learning something random like coding (on this right now), and drop it next week like I never touched it and move on to another thing. I cant force myself to go back to it, either. This is a painful process to me, it’s as though my learning is all in vain as I let my knowledge fade away, and worse, this makes it so I CANNOT settle on a career.

If anyone has any advice for me, I am open to every and all suggestions. If you have been through similar and got through it, please let me know how. I do take adderall btw.

edit: thank you all for your thoughtful responses, i have read them and i do plan on answering as soon as i have the time! thank you guys so so much 💜

#adhd

  • Lasairiona@kbin.social
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    1 year ago

    To give a concrete example of a job* where you’re doing all the things all the time (at least in my experience) is office manager at a start up company. It doesn’t sound glorious, but it’s super varied!

    I currently do, among things I’ll forget to mention :

    • invoicing and payments
    • basic accounting
    • hr
    • day to day office running (making sure we have supplies, watering the plants, organising lunch, answering operational questions)
    • set up and maintain the company knowledge database and teach people how to use it
    • same for client database
    • event planning (fairs, team building, company parties)
    • organise courses and learnings
    • research
    • agenda keeping for the CEO
    • man the phone
    • random things that you can’t really pin down like remind people to clean their desk (we don’t have a cleaning service), run to the supermarket because it’s hot and the boss is buying us ice cream, give info to new employees moving to the country on where to buy the best coffee)

    It’s never boring and also not stressful (for me, I thrive on organising thing).

    *I don’t know if this is a career. Personally I just want to go to work, work, go home and get paid to have money to do the things I like. I don’t need fancy new title or promotions that come with more responsibilities and stress.