So I feel down. I’ve been feeling bad for 3 weeks now, despite the meds.

Thanks lol, you reminded me to take my own =)

Along the way (and thanks to her) I’ve ended up realizing a bunch of messed up stuff about myself, and I’m now questioning basically everything about my life, including some of my closest friends, who I truly am under all the layers of bits I took from them… And now I’m confused, ashamed at my confusion, ashamed in general, feeling guilty about that messed up stuff, and pretty lonely.

I don’t know much at all about this, but i hope it passes.

I have started some stuff : I’m in the process of switching therapists for example. But the mood is still most of the way down.

Your mood may be down, but it’s the best first step you can do, for now :D