Or does it?
I know we were once nothing, but it is still terrifying and depressing to me to think about returning to this. In fact, as of late, I’ve been unable to not think about it: the loss of all experience and all memories of everything, forever. All the good times we had, and will have, with anyone or anything ever will totally annihilate into nothingness. All our efforts will amount to nothing because the thoughtless void is ultimately what awaits everything in the end.
The only argument against this would have to be supernatural, like another cause of the Big Bang or somehow proof of reincarnation, but if my consciousness won’t exist for me to experience it, then what does it matter either way?
There is no comfort in Hell, either. The anvil of death weighing down, infinitely, on all values and passions is becoming unbearable for me, so I could really use any potentially helpful thoughts about this matter.
I don’t know if my input is wanted here but you should know everyone, everyone goes through this feeling at some point. We are so beautiful because we are so small and temporary.
One day the bones of the universe will crumple to nothingness in what we call heat death (we don’t know if this is accurate but the thought exercise is still valuable) and time itself will cease to have any real meaning. But you were real, you still happened, and nothing can change that. You’re beautiful because you’re a speck. If you’re ex-faithful you may have come to internalize that it’s by chance we exist at all (though I don’t know or want to tell you what to believe). It is by chance that an asteroid didn’t kill us in our pre-history like the dinosaurs. It is by chance that we developed cognizance and things like music and culture. It is by chance that the Cold War didn’t go hot and kill us all in the 80s. Every single day is a miracle. We are so gloriously, exultantly insignificant.
The light that burns twice as bright burns half as long.
It’s true, I had forgotten about Einstein’s saying, that we can treat nothing as a miracle or everything as miracles. Thanks for the reminder.
And dude, spoilers! I haven’t seen BR yet lol. Anyway, I do appreciate your thoughts.